Reflection

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else?
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think?
How we feel?
Must there be a secret me?
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?


*A song that describing my feelings...

Feelings

I dunno how to describe my feeling now,

I feel sad, disappointed and....breathless.

I lost myself for a moment,

I dunno what should I do..

Maybe this is just faith,

and I should trust on it.

I let myself believe that miracles could happen,

but it doesn't.

My mind full of confusion,

and also full of questions.

I confuse my feeling with the truth,

and now I need to pretend I don't really care.

I am just so naive to believe that everything will be fine,

now only I realize that the reality and fairytale are totally different.

Perhaps all I need to do is just hide the sadness deep inside my heart.

Promise

Today you send a message to me,

and ask whether am I free

as you wanna come to met me at my house,

then we deal it on Friday.

I am happy but also scare,

I happy because you keep your promise

and you remember it.

I scare because I still don't know how to face you,

I don't know what should I said..

Besides,

I am so touch that you wanna come so far

just to met me and talk with me.

I don't know whether we will settle our problems

and obstacles between us or not,

but I will still keep my promise to you..

Friends Forever..

Update!

Feel tiring and exhausted as just finish my second test,
but luckily got one week holidays,
I can relax my mind for a few days,
and recharge my energy,
but it won't stay long as our trial exam will be in Oktober,
need to study hard for it...sigh..

Besides I got something important to settle now,
I dunno whether will she remember or not,
but I guess she will.
The problem now is..
what should I say?
maybe i should just stay silent during our conversation?
or.........
Perhaps she forget already??
It's good if she forget as I really dunno what to do...
I am in dilemma..gosh..





*p/s: Hey Jeslynn, I updated my blog d!^^

A Real Friend

A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.

A simple friend doesn’t know your parents’ first names.
A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.

A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.

A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed.
A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.

A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.

A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.

A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.

A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend knows that it’s not a friendship until you’ve had a fight.

A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you.




*I wish that I am your real friend...