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Update!

2011-05-08T09:28:00.000-07:00

Hi peeps!

Well, such a long time didn't update my little blog here, seems had abandoned it for ages,hmmph! *sweep off spider web* Haha! Okay I am fine and still in the progress of 'surviving' in the jungle, I am actually facing my final exam, so indeed of burning the midnight oil and study, the mood of blogging suddenly crash into my mind just like that, great! Due to day is kind of late now, so I will talk about my life recently next time kay?

Off to bed, toodles! ^^

你和我

2010-09-13T03:23:00.000-07:00

那些回忆不停地在我脑海里旋转，
我们曾经是很要好的朋友，
还记得，
你说，
我是阿傻，
你是阿呆，
因为阿傻和阿呆是最要好的朋友，
而且离不开对方。

曾经的我，
不知道为什么，
很在乎你。
在乎你的感受，
在乎你的想法，
在乎你的心情，
在乎你的一切。
在乎到我忽略了其他人的感受，
我真傻。

是的，
真正的朋友是住在心里，
就算不能常见面，
也会一直挂念着对方，
就像我和云，
我们心里都住着对方，
一直存有那份默契。

最近的你和我，
不同了。
那份感觉，
慢慢消失了。

近来的我们，
发生了很多事情，
或许我们俩真的是不同世界的人。

我一直以为我放下了，
也看开了。
但为什么，
当你忘了我们的约定时，
当你说你没空见我时，
我的心还会抽痛？
甚至影响我一整天的心情？

你忙，
我相信你，
也能体谅你，
只是心里还是很失望。

或许她说得对，
我应该把你当成一个朋友，
普通的朋友，
这样你和我都不会受伤了。

因此，
我听她的。
我曾试过放下你，
放下我们的友谊，
但，
你挽回了。
你感动了我。
而我再也没有勇气，
放下你。

直到现在，
我对你的感觉也随着时间，
变淡了，
而你对我的态度，
也不一样了，
这不是很好么？
就如大家所愿。

伤痛

2010-08-15T06:11:00.000-07:00

今天我做了一个很愚蠢以及连我自己都无法相信的决定，
我竟然让小猪以打自己和打墙壁的方式来发泄。
小猪这几天的情绪很不稳定，
而且心情也很糟糕，
我知道她讨厌这样的自己。
让我心疼的是，
虽然小猪不开心，
但她却一直压抑着自己的情绪，
在朋友面前还要伪装自己，
假装自己什么事都没有，
脸上还带着微笑来掩饰自己的伤痛。

而今天，
我看见小猪那双冰冷的眼神中，
带着一丝难过。
小猪脸上没有微笑，
没有任何表情，
甚至连话都没说几句。
其实那时，
我真的很害怕，
眼泪已经在眼中打滚，
但我最终还是控制了自己。

小猪终于忍不住了，
她已无法再继续压着自己的情绪，
她要我让她以打自己和打墙壁的方式来发泄，
我...答应了。

我看着她这样伤害自己，
我的心是很痛很痛的。
就像当初我看见我在乎的朋友，
这样伤害自己一样。
那感觉，
痛到无法呼吸，
这种痛是没有人能够理解的。

每当看着自己在乎的朋友这样伤害自己，
而我却什么都不能做，
唯一的，
只是在疼痛的心。

虽然心很痛，
但看见她发泄完后的表情，
我觉得我的决定是对的。

是的，
我无法原谅我自己，
但至少小猪把她的情绪发泄出来，
这样就够了。

如果真的还有下一次，
我希望小猪会在我面前发泄，
虽然心还会再痛一次，
但我不会后悔。

小猪，
gina知道你不想让她担心，
也不忍心看见gina哭，
但这是gina的决定，
gina希望你能让gina陪在小猪身边，
这样就够了。

假装

2010-08-06T05:13:00.000-07:00

‘假装’这个词
真正的意义是什么

是不是带着面具
面对人生？

假装什么事都没有
但其实心里在疼痛

假装自己很快乐
心里却很难过

假装自己过得很好
但却并非如此

假装自己很勇敢
心里却很害怕

假装掉下来的眼泪不算什么
但同时心里也在滴血

假装开心地微笑
心里却很伤感

假装压抑着情绪
心里却早已崩溃

假装自己很坚强
却是比任何人容易受伤

这，就是假装么？

媛

心情

2010-08-02T22:21:00.000-07:00

近来的我, 好不好?
我也不懂。
我在大学的生活过的很充实，
而我也很喜欢这种感觉，
至少忙碌的生活让我没有时间去胡思乱想。

但是最近，
我的心情一直漂浮不定，
这一刻或许我很开心，
但下一秒，
我会忽然很失落。

那些所谓的回忆，
常不受控制地出现在我脑海里，
很辛苦。

虽然我身边总有朋友陪伴着我，
但，
我还是一个人的，
一直都是。

不晓得为什么，
最近我常没有安全感，
我明明很害怕，
却一直努力地掩饰。

我失落时，
也不敢在朋友面前掉一滴眼泪，
一直撑着，
撑着。

我的世界一直都是美好的，
充满了色彩。
但是，
不知从几时开始，
色彩中出现了淡淡的灰色。

我讨厌这样的自己，
讨厌...
会伤害自己的我。

你们

2010-06-26T10:45:00.000-07:00

时间过得真快，转眼间半年的长假就快要结束了。

当我知道我被北大大学(UUM) 录取的那一刻，

我的心情是复杂的，

既开心既难过。

开心是因为我多年的努力没有白费，

我终于实现我踏进大学的梦想。

而难过是因为这也表示我将离开我的家人和朋友到吉打去念书，

虽然也有朋友的陪伴，

但是那种一个人及孤单的感觉依然还在。

这是我第一次离开我的家人，

我真的很舍不得他们。

我会想念他们的笑声，他们的无厘头，

他们的打闹，他们的白痴，

他们的关怀，他们的付出，

他们的喜，怒，哀，乐及他们的种种，种种。

家，是我的避风港，

也是唯一能给与我温暖和安全感的地方。

Dady, Mumy, Ah Boy and Ah Phen，

答应我，你们要好好照顾自己，

如果家里发生什么事，

请不要因为怕我担心而瞒着我，知道么？

无论发生什么事情，

你们永远都是我在这世界上最亲的亲人。

除了家人，我也会与身边的好朋友分开。

云，你是我最要好的朋友，

也是我的知己。

虽然我们俩分开两地，也不能常联络，

但是我相信我们的友谊是坚定的，

而且经得起考验，

无论我们在多远的地方，

只要心中有彼此的存在，那就够了。

毓慧，还记得你常说我是阿傻，你是阿呆，

因为阿傻和阿呆是最配的。

我们常吵架，但我想告诉你，

你永远都会是我的好朋友，

也是我心目中的小偶像，

所以你要加油哦，

无论我在哪里，我都会祝福你。

丽芬，虽然我们不常联络，

但你在我心目中的位置是没有人能够代替的。

因此我还是会常常想起你，

因为你是我的好朋友，

希望你每天都快快乐乐，

抱着你那 happy go lucky 的精神，好吗？

Vivien, see? I'm so good,

I know you can't read chinese,

so I purposely write it in English so that you can read it.

I'm alone when I just stepped into Form 6 and U6A1.

And just in a blink of an eye,

you stepped into my life,

thanks for accompany me all the time,

I really appreciate that you are in my life.

You are my daughter and I'm your mummy,

so no matter where I am,

I will always think about you and miss you (don't ever doubt it),

especially your cute little baby face!

(haha I bet you will vomit or kill me when you see this~)

Anyway, God bless you and all the best ya!

无论是我的家人还是朋友，我都会很想念你们。

谢谢你们一路来的陪伴和支持，

我觉得自己很幸福而且庆幸，

因为有你们在我的生命里。

在这一刻的心情，很复杂。

眼泪不知不觉地掉下来，

但是我会坚强的，并努力地完成我的梦想！

我爱你们！

Family

2010-06-13T05:09:00.000-07:00

*Family is the most important element in our life,so must appreciate them~

Constant as the stars above by Jessica Brown

2010-06-13T01:27:00.000-07:00

in love with this song recently,i feel that it's meaningful for me~ ^v^

Appreciation

2010-04-30T09:46:00.000-07:00

Thank you for yuen and hooi's advices,both of you are my best friend and I really appreciate that.Seriously, I glad that both of you appeared in my life and accompany me no matter what happened.

To yuen,
You are the one who always stay beside me and encourage me.You will always be there whenever I need you and you are also the one who knows me well. We are same type of person, that's why we have the telepathy that others never understand,you know what am I thinking and I also know what's in your mind. Whenever I sad or depressed, you will know it through my eyes.I know you care and worry about me, please don't worry about me,I will be fine. I promise.

To hooi,
You are right. 'We are people who hard to voice up our feelings and because of that we often bottle up ourselves. Sooner or later, we become very passive and any enthusiasm walks pass us will freezed as if there's no hope. We are not only hiding our feelings, but we are hiding our and wish as well. They only stay in out heart and diminished before they can come out from our mouth...' You are also the one who always give me advices and supports. Without you, I think I will mess up my mind with lots of facts and problems until my head explode.

Nevertheless, both of you are friends who play important roles in my life, I feel that I am so lucky to have friends like both of you. Thanks for let me be the lucky one and I will be all right.

无题

2010-04-28T01:13:00.000-07:00

每个人总会有成长的一天，
我也是。
在成长的岁月中或许会遇到一些不愉快的事情，
但只要你放开胸怀，
坚强勇敢面对所有的事情，
你，
一定能跨越一切的障碍。

我现在才发现，
原来，
我一直都是执著的。
不论是对家人，
朋友或是我自己，
我都是这样。
当我面对问题时，
我都选择把它藏在心里，
不愿告诉任何人。
这，
算是在逃避吗？
我也不知道。

我在家人或朋友面前都很少掉眼泪，
或许是我不想让别人看见自己脆弱的一面吧。
我什么事情都是放在心里最深处，
如果你不问我，
我通常很少主动说出来。

我笑并不代表我快乐，
我哭并不代表我难过。
这样的我，
很虚伪吗？

最近，
我只想一个人静一静，
认真地去思考。

有时候，
眼泪会不知不觉地掉下来，
但是，
只要望着天空，
眼泪就不会掉下来么？

每个人在这世界上都有自己存在的意义，
那么我存在的意义是什么？

媛

CNY 2010

2010-03-04T06:36:00.001-08:00

Long time din't update my blog, luckily it not yet dead. Hmm now just stepped into year 2010, I have new revolution and new target, and of course I hope that I can further my study in university. The Chinese New Year celebration had come to an end, so let the photos tell the stories.

decoration of my house during cny

steamboat

enjoying the steamboat

us!

cousin in Kulim, Butterworth

smile~

liang's house

chien

happy ending~~

*I am glad that my family always right beside me no matter what,so I love you all very much and Happy CNY 2010! ^v^

生命

2009-12-22T03:21:00.000-08:00

生命中

不断地有人离开或进出

于是，看见的，看不见了

记住的，遗忘了

生命中

不断地有得到和失落

于是，看不见的，看见了

遗失的，记住了

然而

看不见的

是不是就等于不存在？

记住的是不是永远不会消失？

End

2009-12-14T19:56:00.000-08:00

Finally everything has come to the end, we have a long conversation yesterday and we kept talk and talk about what happened recently. We then talk about our inner feelings about each other, and I am happy that we were quite frank to each other. Now only I truly understand what really happened to her recently, she was over pressure herself and very depressed, until she had problems with family and friends. I am so sorry that I could not company her while she suffer it alone, she looked pale and weak.

I almost cried when she told me what happened, her problems was serious than mine and also serious than when she was in secondary school. But she just suffer it all by herself without teiling anyone included me as she afraid that it would affected my mood and studies. I feel sad for her, she do not deserved all this, she should be a cheerful girl. My heart feel the pain of her and the depression of her when she going through all this.

She had promised me that she will be frank with me and let me company her no matter what happen. If our earth really will have a huge disaster in 2012, I will glad that you are in my life and I wanna tell you that
you are my life's one miracle.

慢舞

2009-12-13T05:51:00.000-08:00

爱像跳慢舞
紧紧抓着一起踏步
选对舞伴万众瞩目
但我们舞步
为了追寻完美
练太熟了反而虚伪
飞旋一起飞旋自我麻醉
旋转不停旋转
忘了彼此抓紧
此空虚无止漫步跳舞
小心翼翼舞步
心里有数是最后支舞
就闭眼忘了呼吸的投入
像漫步跳舞我们不哭
用默默地祝福只等这远去
渐渐静下来
我们学不会跳的慢舞结束

2009-12-10T04:08:00.000-08:00

At this moment,

my heart was empty,

question and questions keep repeating in my mind,

what if you made the mistake?

what I suppose to do if you made the same mistake again?

can I accept it or not?

can I still accept you as my friend?

I know that as your friend,

I should support you no matter how,

and you also frank with me about who you really are.

But I know that it was a mistake,

really a mistake,

even myself also cannot accept it,

and I also cannot accept you at one moment.

You knew it was a terrible mistake,

and you also promised me that you won't repeat it again.

But now,

there was a lots of rumour spreading around,

is it a fact?

or it was just..rumour?

I think i will quite dissapointed if you really did it again,

but then I will still support you no matter how,

I just wanna tell you that I don't mind who you are,

because no matter what,

you are my best friend,

and I don't care how other people think about you,

I will still stand by your side,

as long as you be frank enough with me.

朋友

2009-12-03T01:38:00.000-08:00

总觉得有朋友，有了朋友的爱，有了对朋友的爱，是件十分窝心的事。有时候，当我在读书时，会想起一个又一个的朋友，想起许多共同经历的事，想起曾经说过的话，那种温柔和窝心会立刻包围我，令我感到没有那么疲倦，那么累。

也许，朋友不是那么重要，可是，朋友又的确那么重要，因为在我们的生命里，或许我们可以没有感动，没有胜利，没有其他的东西，但，不能没有家人和朋友。

朋友是什么呢？
朋友是有悲伤一起哭，有欢乐一起笑，一起看星星，而且当两个朋友分别在两个地方时，都会想念对方，祝福对方。

朋友，是一种温柔，一种别样的温柔。
朋友的可贵不是因为曾一同走过的岁月，朋友最难得的是分别以后依然会时时想起，依然能记得你，你是我的朋友。

朋友，我会好好珍惜我和你的友情，直到我的心跳停止。

You are special to me

2009-10-16T04:10:00.000-07:00

*Miss you

when I miss you

my heart feels the heat;

when I am with you

every moment becomes sweet.

Thank you, my friend

2009-09-24T02:06:00.000-07:00

yuen, thanks for company me today.

I am in such a bad mood as many things happened recently,

thank you for willing to listen to me

and comforted me,

I feel much better after talked with you,

although we both are in different circumstances

and din't met for long time,

but we are still as close as before,

I am glad to have you as my best friend in my life,

Friend Forever!

Outing

2009-09-21T05:05:00.000-07:00

We have long time didn't being to beach already so we decided to recall our memories in Teluk Bahang last Saturday. It's actually rain heavily last Saturday morning but luckily it stopped.We reached there at about 1.30pm and the view there was nice. So lets the photos be the talk..^^

my crazy big bro

him again..

nice?

by my bro

by my mumy

with my mumy

sam, jian ye and me

yea!

well, we enjoyed ourselves very much.

by my mumy

Sandy!

the sea..looked so peaceful..

the evening view

^V^

yaya I bring my Barney to the beach..

cute right??

hehe..XD

on the way home..

The outing this time was fun and I had enjoyed myself very well but there are still got several problems which keep appearing in my mind. I gonna said it on my mind, something about us doesn't seems right these days. I really confuse and in dilemma, what should I do?? Perhaps I should just forget it and strive hard for STPM!

Reflection

2009-08-30T05:44:00.000-07:00

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else?
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think?
How we feel?
Must there be a secret me?
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

*A song that describing my feelings...

Feelings

2009-08-30T05:04:00.000-07:00

I dunno how to describe my feeling now,

I feel sad, disappointed and....breathless.

I lost myself for a moment,

I dunno what should I do..

Maybe this is just faith,

and I should trust on it.

I let myself believe that miracles could happen,

but it doesn't.

My mind full of confusion,

and also full of questions.

I confuse my feeling with the truth,

and now I need to pretend I don't really care.

I am just so naive to believe that everything will be fine,

now only I realize that the reality and fairytale are totally different.

Perhaps all I need to do is just hide the sadness deep inside my heart.

Promise

2009-08-24T07:15:00.000-07:00

Today you send a message to me,

and ask whether am I free

as you wanna come to met me at my house,

then we deal it on Friday.

I am happy but also scare,

I happy because you keep your promise

and you remember it.

I scare because I still don't know how to face you,

I don't know what should I said..

Besides,

I am so touch that you wanna come so far

just to met me and talk with me.

I don't know whether we will settle our problems

and obstacles between us or not,

but I will still keep my promise to you..

Friends Forever..

Update!

2009-08-21T05:11:00.000-07:00

Feel tiring and exhausted as just finish my second test,
but luckily got one week holidays,
I can relax my mind for a few days,
and recharge my energy,
but it won't stay long as our trial exam will be in Oktober,
need to study hard for it...sigh..

Besides I got something important to settle now,
I dunno whether will she remember or not,
but I guess she will.
The problem now is..
what should I say?
maybe i should just stay silent during our conversation?
or.........
Perhaps she forget already??
It's good if she forget as I really dunno what to do...
I am in dilemma..gosh..

*p/s: Hey Jeslynn, I updated my blog d!^^

A Real Friend

2009-08-11T06:36:00.000-07:00

A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.

A simple friend doesn’t know your parents’ first names.
A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.

A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.

A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed.
A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.

A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.

A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.

A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.

A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend knows that it’s not a friendship until you’ve had a fight.

A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you.

*I wish that I am your real friend...

纸鹤

2009-07-10T05:22:00.000-07:00

你知道纸鹤代表什么吗？
纸鹤代表着我对你的祝福与思念。

考试快到了，
你要照顾好身体，
生病了要休息，
不要逞强，
知道吗？

在这段期间，
你和我都很难过，
你说等考完这次的月考后要与我谈，
我期待但同时也很担心，
我们会是开心呢？
还是不欢而散？
种种的可能性出现在我脑海里。

但我们会解决我们的问题，
因为我相信我和你有心电感因，
我们总有着别人看不见的默契，
别人不明白的言语。

我送了一只纸鹤给你，
它将带着我的祝福，
跟随着你，
直到永远。。

还是让你走

2009-06-24T06:47:00.000-07:00

遇见你那天起
思念总不停
让我发觉这世界充满着爱的甜密
我好想把我的爱全部交托给你
一生一世都不分离
情已变回不去
没人来决定
我只好选择离开
因为我不够任性
你让我变得好孤寂
你让我痛得没力气
伤了自己
还是让你走
走了请你不要再回头
放开你的手
让爱这种感觉最难受
到底我们的问题是谁的责任
有谁来作平衡
我感到一点点无奈的心疼
还是让你离走
分手两字很难说出口
放开你的手
是我给你最后的温柔
不要说借口无法
挽留

~最近喜欢上这首歌~

对不起！

2009-06-11T07:25:00.000-07:00

对不起，真的对不起！
不要生气了好不好？
我不是故意的啦！
我不知道原来你是这样想的。。
我以为你不在乎。。
对不起，
伤害了你。。
对不起！

最熟悉的陌生人

2009-05-29T07:05:00.001-07:00

你和我总是各忙各的，

虽然是同一间学校，

但碰面的机会却很少，

就算碰面，

也只是擦身而过，

更何况是聊天。

如今的我们，

只是最熟悉的陌生人。

2009-05-29T07:05:00.000-07:00

Happy Teacher's Day!

more photos will coming up soon..^^

2009-05-15T06:36:00.000-07:00

15/5/09

Vivien's Birthday,

just let the photos be the talk...

Americano

( chocolate with cheese)

it was nice..

Happy Birthday!

Birthday girl and also crazy girl

make a wish

cut cake ceremony

ting, tomato, bao bao, vien, the cat
fish and me

yea..^^

First try

Second try

Third try

blurr..

guys

girls~

with Ekonomi teacher,

Miss Loo

Finally,

the whole group of us..

and again Happy Birthday to you, Vivien!

P/S: be a good

girl and guai guai ya,

don't be so naughty

always bully me,

pity of me only..sob sob..

(I knew you won't listen..hahaha)

*Happy Birthday to:

Jia Hui (15/5)

Siew Ling (16/5)

Hazel (17/5)

Wish you all happy everyday and friends forever ya! ^^

情绪

2009-05-11T08:20:00.000-07:00

情绪常常都会令我抓狂，
令我失去了方向。
一旦爆发，
我就会倒下。
我现在学会了压抑情绪。
因为我是个不懂得隐藏自己情绪的人，
所以一直要压抑着情绪是很辛苦的。
但没有办法，
我没有选择。
我不能一直让情绪控制我，
我一定要控制我自己。
我一定要学着如何压抑自己的情绪，
虽然有天会爆发，
但至少不会是现在。
而且我不想让她担心，
我知道她也很压力，
因此我不想增加她的烦恼。

我一定会学会的。
我一定要！！！

The Story of Rapunzel

2009-04-27T03:56:00.000-07:00

Like any fairy stories,the tale of Rapunzel has a deeper meaning to it. It is a story about self-image. Rapunzel is a young lady who lives locked up in a castle, imprisoned by an old witch who continually tells her how ugly she is. One day, a handsome prince passes by the tower and tells Rapunzel of her loveliness. She lets down her golden locks (apparently of some considerable length), so he may climb her hair to rescue her.

It is neither the castle nor the witch that has kept her a prisoner, but the belief in her own ugliness. When she recognises her beauty, reflected in the face of her prince charming, she sees that she can be set free.

*We all need to be aware of the witch or witches inside ourselves that are stopping us from breaking free.

To: Boon Su

2009-04-27T03:18:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday!

haha..

Wish you happy always

with your Bao Bao ya!

( P/S: I know if you see this you sure will say me very 'wu liao'
and crazy,but anyway good to have a classmate and
assistant monitor like you! wahaha..^ ^)

Expressions

2009-04-21T06:08:00.000-07:00

Why I know almost everything about you
but you know nothing about me?

Why I can remember every single thing of you
but you can't even remember mine?

Why I can remember every words that you had said
but you can't remember it even though I mentioned it
lot of time?

Why I feel it was important to keep
my promise to you but you don't?

Why I am the one who always care about
what happened between our friendship
but you not even realize what is it
and not even care about it?

Why I am the one who always considered and not you?

Why I keep feeling unsafe?

Why I am the one who keep thinking nonsense?

just an expressions..

Sports Day

2009-04-14T02:31:00.000-07:00

We were having Sports Day on last Thursday, it was quite fun as that day was raining cats and dogs. Any yet guess what? We were still carried on everthing as planned. I get involved in marching for my House -Pykett and my white shoes had turn up to chocolate flavour (sob..sob..) But it was the first and last Sports Day in MBS, hmm I miss that moment...

our club was seiling Ais Kacang,Cendol

and Nasi Lemak,

haha our businness was quite good

beng with vivien

haha it was quite smear but
it was funny, crazy Hai Thong

hoon, vivien, Li Ying and Alecia
I am missing..

^V^

UNBELIEVABLE

I am taking photo with Lay Hoon leh!

ARGHH~

(explanation: cause she always

refuse to take pictures)

MIRACLE..

( conclusion: she will kill me..)

a cute little guy here..
the Helium balloon..

FIRST TRY
with the balloon

SECOND TRY
Fine..give up..

RED..yea Pykett..

group pic of us..
that Hai Thong just keep kacau around..

conclusion: He loves photo-taking

Finally..
I am taking photo with Hai Thong

and Mr.Balloon

BOX HIM!
Yeah..

with Goofy..(new nickname)
haha she get very wet as

just finishing running for her House..

END

Relay for Life

2009-03-18T04:29:00.000-07:00

We had participated in fighting cancer programme which name as
'Relay for Life'.

Date: 14/3/09-15/3/09

Time: 6pm-10am

Venue: Youth Park

I planned to overnight there actually as I already bring my whole bag there but because of various reasons, I gonna went home, sigh didn't have the chance to make my dream come true...*v*

H-O-P-E (by MBS)

but I guess no hope at all..haha

the camp site

rainbow which captured by Lay Eng

line dance..

dance with boxing

wow~

Mbsians

ah gong been kidnapped,yeah! (swt..)

: )

Lay Pei, ah gong, me and Lay Eng

our group

before

after
(it was a ceremony to give hope
to those cancer patients,
I wish them happy and healthy forever!)

yucks..our foots..

star
I love star a lots..

but not many people know about it..

they were cute right? ^v^
(they were strangers which appeared

from no where..haha)

crazy

my ah gong

It was fun to spend time with our friends so I appreaciate every moment with them, I love all of my friends no matter what happen.
However Relay for Life was a great programme as it give the cancer patients encouragements, hopes and helps so that they would not give up easily,

Relay for Life GO! ^^

A Great Day

2009-03-17T06:15:00.000-07:00

My schedule today was shopping,

singing and gym.

Chien come to fetch me at 1.35pm then went to nearby

petrol station to fill up the petrol.

Actually we need to met Yuen in Gurney at 1.30pm

but we were late so Chien drove in a

high speed (as usual).

At first we went shopping and

hanging around,

then we went to Redbox at 3pm.

we sang and sang none-stop for 2 hours,

then keep taking photos in the toilet.

me, yuen and chien..

I am staring at other places actually..

we..again..

my girls

haha what happened to me and yuen??

only half of our faces..

love yuen!

chien with yuen

chien with me

crazy people

After back from Gurney, I went to gym

with my daddy and mummy..

quite tiring.

I love it!

...

can see me??

me and my daddy training behind

my little bro..haha

End of my day.^^

Just an Update

2009-03-14T00:17:00.000-07:00

I am back again!Haha I know I did not updated my blog for long time already because of school exam and activities, sigh quite busy recently. My exam just finish today and I feel that the exam paper this time glaringly quite tough as our teacher told us that the HM want all of us to fail so that we will study harder next time,oh gosh!what's that?didn't he will think that if we fail everytime we might no mood to study anymore??but maybe he was right..sigh...

that's my twin..

^v^

smile..

during cny..

I am in the car and

my big bro was sleeping beside me..

oh my god!BARNEY!

I am bore..

the whole group of us..

after gambling in my house..

me,sam and liang

end of my updated..tata..

muakss~~^^

The End

2009-02-28T05:50:00.000-08:00

___________________________________________

After the conversation that we

had make yesterday night,

we both realize that we actually

know each other very well,

she know what am I thinking

and i know what are she thinking,

mayb this is what people called mental telepathy,

we promised to frank and sincere to each other

as we don't want the history to

repeat again in the future.

It's was good to have you in my life,

finally everything has come to the end

and it should be like this.

_____________________________________________

Good Luck!

2009-02-11T04:51:00.000-08:00

MSSPP has started already

and my little bro will participate in

swimming event so wish

my little brother BEST OF LUCK ya! ^v^

Kui Kui

2009-01-21T06:33:00.000-08:00

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Happy Birthday to Kui Kui!

Wish you have a Happy Chinese New Year

and good luck in your STPM! ^^

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Tagged by Zhen Lynn

2009-01-16T05:46:00.000-08:00

Directions : Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with fifteen random things,habits or goals about you. At the end, choose ten people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don't forget to leave a comment (''You're tagged!'') and to read your blog, you can't tag the person who tagged you.

Ok, I am now rushing my Maths-S actually as we need to pass it up on next Tuesday.
Today is Lay Hoon's birthday.
Tomorrow got replacement for CNY, so tired need to go to school.
I am having STPM this year so every teacher started to give us pressure.
Oh ya, I need to bath my Barney and my mummy promised will make some clothes and dresses for Barney, haha I am so happy about it.
I will take MUET paper in March.
I must work very hard this year, sigh...
Congratulations to Vivien (my crazy daughter) who get Ban 4 in her MUET exam.
I feel like I will fall sick soon as the weather nowadays keep changing, very cold during early in the morning and midnight then very hot in the afternoon and evening.
I am updating my blog now...(lol crazy)
Oh gosh! I wanna watch ghost movies and Bedtime Stories.
As usual, I quarrel with Boon Su (my assistant monitor) before school end, actually we quarrel almost everyday. (not my problem, it was his problem, he is quite hot-temper.)
Seldom talk with someone as she was very very busy.
Hopefully my classmates already done their decorations for CNY.
I am finish typing now...(swt~)

The Ten People I Tag Are :-

Ricebug2 = Just wanna tag her.
Vinny = Wanna know what she doing recently.
Tomato = Feel wanna tag her.
Fei Cui = I wanna know more about her.
Boeyee = No reason.
Malingshu = Miss her a lots.
Camel = Because she is camel...
Hui Xin = Hmm donno why...
Rebecca = Her English is good.
Shu Sien = Donno. (^^)

2009-01-15T07:14:00.000-08:00

To: Lay Hoon

Happy Birthday to you,

happy birthday to you,

happy birthday to Ricebug2 (Lay Hoon)

happy birthday to you....

*wish you happy always and don't sleep too much in year 2009 ya!!

hahaha..ah beng...I also dunno why I like to call your nickname..^^

From: Sandy

Birthday

2009-01-09T04:13:00.000-08:00

Finally I have turn up to 19,I am not sure whether it was a good news or bad news,sigh..Ok firstly I wanna thanks my dear fellow friends from Upper 6 Arts 1 (U6A1) who had gave me a big surprise today and also Lay Hoon who gave me a bracelet as my birthday present,it is nice I love it.These was the person who I wanna thanks:

My Family
Every fellow friends from U6A1
My 'beloved' teacher,Miss Teh (my maths tuition teacher)
Zhen Lynn
Lay Hoon
Siew Yuen
Geok Hooi
Yi Lynn
Woon Ting
Shir Ley
Jian Ye
Sharon
Jacelyn
Fei Cui
Monique
Hai Tong
Malingshu

*Erm please forgive me if I had miss up 1 of you...

Yaya I had been such a long time din't update my blog already, a reason for that was I am busy and not in mood. Now already step into the beginning of 2009 and i am having an extremely important exam this year which is STPM. It will decide whether I could further my studies to University on not so I am quite worry about it. I really need to work very hard this year.

But anyway, I am sincerely thanks to those who still remember Barney and my birthday (usually people will forget about it as it is on the first week of school reopen) and greeting me.I am so happy, thank you! ^^

By: Sandy and Barney

Starwalk 2008

2008-12-15T03:07:00.000-08:00

Yesterday early in the morning about 5am I wake up and get myself ready, then I prepared a few "important" things like:

Mineral Water

Towel

Some Sweets ( so that I could eat it when I wanna get fainted..swt~)

After I get everything ready, Yun Pei come 2 fetch me and we go to PISA together. Yun Pei also fetch Ting Ting, Hui Juain, Seow Give and Kui Kui.We reach there about 6.20am and saw many people already crowded there and prepared for the challenge. After we all ready with our clothes and clothes' number, it was already 7.15am, we quickly walk as fast as we can to catch up with those who compete in Starwalk as those who join Starwalk competition supposed started to walk at 7am sharp and those who were non-competition started at 7.15am. At the meanwhile, we need to complete our 10km journey in 120 minutes which means 2 hours so that we could get a participating certificate and lucky draw.

My clothes' number..lucky number 7224

My cert, we work hard for that

Sunquick, one of the sponsor

Erm I donno this guy actually,

he suddenly appeared from no where

when I am taking picture...=_=

Me with Juain..

my hair looked messed after Starwalk

After Starwalk I slept the whole day and my feet got 'bubbles', OMG! It was hurt..sob sob~~ And the next day I feel like I am just like a old grandma, pain everywhere...but I feel much better now, hahaha... oh ya I also help my Barney get a Digi balloon after Starwalk, my Barney so happy with it as she get a new friend...^^

Barney Attack

2008-12-10T05:09:00.000-08:00

The baby is cute right? of course my Barney too...hahaha

I love this video a lot...

Ellids Seniors' Farewell 2008

2008-12-10T03:36:00.000-08:00

We were having our English Language Literary and Debating Society (ELLIDS) Seniors' Farewell last Thursday (4/12/08) from 7pm till 9.30pm in Victorial Station,'The Train Restaurant' which is located opposite Giant in Bayan Baru. The exterior design of this restaurant are unique. It was shaped like a train and best interior design as well. The whole place like as if you were having your meal in a train except they don't have the " cho cho sound thingy "( swt ~~ ) .

We ( Lay Eng and me) were fetch by our senior, Suat Boon and followed by Cindy's car where Lay Hoon or Ah Beng ( long time didn't call her nick name, hahaha, she definitely will kill me if she have see this...) sit beside her. On the way to our destiny, my senior suddenly ask us whether we knew the way to Victorial Station as she was also the first time been there. Lay Eng and I almost get fainted at that moment, so after some 'discussion', Lay Eng decided to ask for help from her brother. Then, we keep turning and turning, poor Cindy as she had to followed our car. Finally we successfully reach Giant but we could not find our destination so we stop beside the road again and my senior call our 'dearest' ex-President. We waited for few minutes and our ex-President finally found us, surprisingly he walked to find us. Then finally we reach Victorial Station, YEAH! we 'smart' right? haha...

Christmas 'Presents' near the stairs

We were having buffet dinner there..

the 'Train'..

yea, 'train'

Some pictures in the 'Train'.. a bit blur as quite dark inside

Lay Eng and me

Lay Eng and Alecia

Three musketeers! crazy..

Group of us except Lay Hoon as she don't like to take picture

so she be the photographer..

We took it inside the toilet,

the mirror was damn small

so we need to squeeze to get picture of whole group of us

did you realize that everyone in this picture were from CDK except for Alecia?

my head look small in this picture..wahaha

Group of teachers which included Pn.Geetha, Cikgu Arif

and few more.

Okay, my President, Yeong Seng with Cikgu Arif, our MBS KK teacher..

Suat Boon, my vice-President with Cikgu Arif

Senior with Cikgu Arif

Another senior with Cikgu Arif which I forgot his name

Christopher with Cikgu Arif,

I know him as Cheah Yeem and him got Band 5

in MUET test! Incredible...

Group picture with Pn.Geetha, our teacher advisor

Another group picture of us

Haha.. what Cikgu Arif had told Yoke Ching that

make her laughed till like that...

Well, finally a nice picture of us

Sigh.. actually we total have all 8 seniors but 2 of them went back earlier and Cheah Yeem could not make it as she had Christmas party that night. We quite enjoy that night and h

ad make some conversation about studies with seniors too.So this is the end of our farewell.^^

By Sandy

10/12/08

Vacation

2008-11-22T02:32:00.000-08:00

I am Back!

Hey guys, how's your holidays?

Yaya, I am just back from Genting several weeks ago.

Here are some pictures to share with you all..

Date : 16.11.2008-17.11.2008

Venue : Genting Highlands

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=First day in Genting=

This was the view of Genting...nice right?

First World Hotel, full with colours....

We just arrive in Genting,
while waiting for check-in to hotel,
we took pictures...^^
quite happy as we got Tower 2..

Took it in front of The Tower of Paris

The Ferris Wheel
It means a lot to me...

Well, my elder brother with his friend,
my bro was acting cool (as usual..)

Chien and me...yea!

The next stop: Mary-Go-Round
I love it too! haha..

Family picture of us, hmm a bit dark...

but at least it was a great memory.

Yummy...

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=Second Day in Genting=

Me and Chien in the 'boat'...

Lover Bridge..
we saw it during our ride of 'boat',

wahaha suitable for couples...

She was beautiful..

HEY NICE RIDE!
Wow,

I just saw The Statue of Liberty

riding a mortocycle!

Promoting Shoes~~

The fake Thousand hand of Buddhism
(I wonder why my bro expression so funny??）

Candid pic of us...
sigh, crazy people!

Me, chien and bro

We again!

Yucks! my crazy bro acting CUTE!!
Geli...

Corkscrew!

Suddenly we saw him...=_=

The Girls Clown...

'Mummy I also want the balloon',

I really ask for it but my mummy

said I am a crazy girl so

she dont wanna get it for me...HNG sob sob...

Yea Flying Coaster!
but I do not dare to play it...

The Pirate Ship...

Where was the Pirate? swt~

Yaya Chien, me and Jian Ye..

playing the Space Shot!

We are ready to flying without wings~

hopefully I will still survive later..

I am praying hard for that!

Cup of jelly..

Heart shape...create by my crazy bro

Buffet~

Special fan

Me and Chien...(again)

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=Third Day in Genting=

Chien, me and ying.

The whole group of us

in front of the Chinese Restaurant

We playing UNO in the bus,

quite shaking actually..

Well, here come to the end of my vacation,

Happy Holidays Everyone! ^^

～　THE END　～

SPM!

2008-11-12T03:17:00.000-08:00

wish all those taking SPM paper this year best of luck ya!

SPM GO!^^

Just an xpression

2008-11-10T03:35:00.000-08:00

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Today I am quite moody because getting fedup with some of the people,

and I scold one of my friend today.

Haih,really sorry of scolding her,

I am not purposely want to scold her,

just dunno why at that moment I feel really piss off.

I can't even find someone to discuss about the farewell for senior,

because everyday sure got member not coming to school,

so I can't imagine what will it be to held a meeting.

Really angry,

not to them but me.

Mayb I am not trying my best to lead them.

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A Special Letter

2008-10-30T04:15:00.000-07:00

I never thought that you will write letter to me,
really never thought about it,
but I am happy to receive your letter.
Seem like writing letter to each other already become a traditional for us,haha...
When I start to read your letter,
I feel curious why are you writing this to me,
but I feel warm and touch in my heart,
because you share almost every moment whether you are sad or happy with me,
and I am glad that after you go through all those sadness and difficult moment,
I am the first person that you wanna share with,
we be friend for about 5 years already,
we go through many moment together,
but I hope that our friendship will continuous till eternity,
and I am happy to be your friend.

sandy 30/10/2008

Happy Birthday to Vinny!

2008-10-27T06:42:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to you,

happy birthday to you,

happy birthday to Vinny

(my lovely daughter-Woman of Tomorrow),

happy birthday to you! ^^

*wish you have a memorable birthday and best of luck in your exams!

This is me

2008-10-06T23:31:00.000-07:00

(Demi)
I've always been the kind of girl

That hid my face

So afraid to tell the world

What I've got to say

But I had this dream

Right inside of me

I'm going to let it show

It's time

To let you know

This is the real, this is me

I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now

Gonna let the light

Shine on me

Now I found

Who I am

There's no way to hold it in

No more hiding who I want to be

This is me

Do you know what it's like to feel so in the dark

To dream about a life where you're the shining star

Even though it seems

Like it's to far away

I have to believe in myself

It's the only way

This is the real, this is me

I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now

Gonna let the light

Shine on me

Now I found

Who I am

There's no way to hold it in

No more hiding who I want to be

This is me

(Joe)

You're the voice

I hear inside my head

the reason that I am singing

I need to find you, I gotta find you

you're the missing piece I need the song inside on me

I need to find you

(Both)

i gotta find you

This is the real, this is me

I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now

Gonna let the light

Shine on me

Now I found

Who I am

There's no way to hold it in

No more hiding who I want to be

This is me

(Joe)

You're the missing piece

I need the song inside on me

You are the voice I hear inside my head

the reason that I am singing

(Demi)

Now I found

Who I am

There's no way to hold it in

No more hiding who I want to be

This is me..

(By Demi Lavato and Joe Jonas)

*I like this song because it has voice out what inside my mind,this is me.

29/9/08

2008-09-29T04:09:00.001-07:00

Monday 19:05pm

I busy cooked lunch for my brothers this morning as my mumy went for worked,then study Economy for the whole afternoon but I am not very concentrate on what I am studying because my mind keep thinking of something nonsense..sigh..I hate that when I am mind absent,especially when I am studying,really hate it!gosh~

Mood Score:55%
*Not in a good mood :(

28/9/08

2008-09-28T04:39:00.000-07:00

Sunday 19:40pm

I am in good mood today as nothing affected my mood and the most important was I spend my day with my family.I cook dinner for them then my mumy together with me went to the pool side to watch a match between my elder brother and little brother,guess what?both of them got same marks,unbelievable because my little brother is a swimmer and my elder brother haven went for swimming for about 9 months and yet he still could get marks,haha..hopefully he will win because I bet 1 buck with my mumy.Beside if he win,my mumy will let him go to gurney.So now still don't know who was the winner,it will be decide by the judge which was my dady later.Oh gosh!I forget to bring along my Barney go to watch the match...^^ but anyway,today is a relaxing day for me.

Mood Score:90%
*I am proud of myself to get such marks,as Vinny said:"the woman of tomorrow!"Great!

26/9/08

2008-09-26T05:59:00.000-07:00

Friday 21:00pm
As usual,I go to school and today I got duty for monitor board,nothing special actually,just feel kind of annoying with someone,but nevermind just forget about it.Then,we are having Maths test at the first period.After that,our class Leo members went to collect money for their installation and orientation,I also accompany by Fish went to collect money for Ellids,everything ran smoothly.So I am in a good mood for today,haha...I try to control myself not to be so emotional,so far so good,I am so proud of myself!^^

Mood Score:85%
*Good mood for today,yeah!

25/9/08

2008-09-25T04:21:00.000-07:00

Thursday 20:15pm

We are having a meeting today for Ellids.Well,nothing special actually but at least this meeting make me find back what have i lost which is confidence.Honestly,I totally piss off and lost my confidence during the last 'incident' but today i had found back 60% of my confidence.Hmm..this is a good one for today I guess.Although still got some members who don't want to listen to me but I will try my best to lead them and prove myself,hopefully i won't let senior down.Sometimes I quite emotional,erm...sorry not sometimes,actually is most of the time,haha..like when you met me now,I will smile to you but later maybe when you met me again,I will seem very angry or even sad.Yaya I admit that I am a person who easily control by my feeling and six sense,because I trust my feeling very much,this is true as my feeling is quite accurate one,wahaha...(shame shame~)

Mood Score: 75%
*Today I give myself 75% as my mood is quite good,and I will try my best to get full marks! ^^

A Meaningful Song

2008-09-24T05:40:00.000-07:00

Nothing gonna change my love for you

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now touch me now
I don't want to live without you
Nothings gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gona change my love for you
You ought know by now much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothings gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star I'll be there(for you)if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now touch me now
I don't want to live without you

*This song is very meaningful as it is my parents' wedding main song, it is quite nice and touch.